This is it! My gastric bypass surgery is scheduled for Wednesday: smack dab in the middle of my kids' birthdays, my 10 year wedding anniversary is November 30, and of course there are the holidays. This has been a horrible time to give up food. I'm very fortunate to have supportive friends and family around me which has made my two-week pre-surgery liquid diet tolerable.
The initial feeling of hunger subsided quickly, and I find that staying busy or napping helps. However, watching my family eat ice cream at Friendly's while I drink Crystal Light, sitting at the dining room table with all the finery sipping my chicken broth and avoiding all the leftovers was torturous. But becoming healthy and physically active for my family trumped my desire for pumpkin cheesecake this Thanksgiving.
It's when I'm sad or angry that I get hungry. It's called emotional eating and it is something I will continue battle with after surgery. I'm told that I'll vomit if I overeat, so perhaps I will find another outlet for my emotions. Writing a blog comes to mind!
HOPES AND FEARS
My biggest fear is that something will happen during surgery that will leave my children motherless…a terrible thought given that I am doing the surgery as part of my quest to be a better mother. Another fear is that I won’t be able to follow the doctor's orders and will not be successful. This happens to approximately 20% of all patients. I'm a rule follower which gives me a better chance. Also, by being so public about this I feel I have insurance that I won't slip up (my pride couldn't take the humiliation).
Down the road my hopes include climbing a mountain in the Adirondacks, running the 5k Turkey Trot next Thanksgiving, and helping another person struggling with their weight. More to come after surgery!