Ahoy! It’s been a long time since I checked in here or in fact anywhere besides Google . The last thing I posted was about dropping my daughter Julia off at a children’s mental hospital so that appropriate medicine could be found to tame her violence and obsessive compulsive disorder behaviors due to autism and hormonal rages of puberty. The facility has had some modest success and incidents are less frequent and intense, but they’re still trying to find the best regimen. One of her old medications made her ravenous and with OCD she was compelled to eat often. As a result she was quite overweight, uncomfortable, and always overheated. With the medication adjustments she has lost a lot of weight and seems happier that she can move and climb playground equipment with ease again.
It took me a while to get over my guilt of dropping her off there, but I’m at a point where I’m at peace with it. I have kept myself busy and tried to take care of things that were long neglected. I repaired holes in the walls that Julia had made during her tantrums, ripped up and replaced carpet with some hardwood, painted walls, and did some landscaping in my previously weed infested yard. But it hasn’t been all work and chores. I’ve been able to spend some time with my thirteen year old son and do things that we haven’t been able to do for the past few years. We’ve gone to King’s Dominion, to the beach, to see some movies, hiking, biking, canoeing, and visited some friends and relatives. He’s a good kid and rarely complained about Julia making “normal” life impossible, and I’m glad that we’ve had this time together.
I have continued sailing (maybe more frequently now) over yonder on Google as my Captain RB online persona. I launched this pirate alter ego because I wanted to use something I love in a fun, crazy way to help break down the walls we all build around ourselves. By sharing a mixture of humor, inspiration, and tears people can see that they're not alone in feeling sad, insecure, isolated, depressed, etc... People often suffer in seclusion because they're embarrassed or feel that if they open up they'd be ridiculed or just simply misunderstood. Show people that life is meant to be lived and not just endured. That emotions, both negative and positive, are part of living. That we should laugh until we cry... and cry until we laugh... embrace kindred spirits and learn from our encounters with others... My crew has become part of my family and many have said the same of the other’s they have met while sailing with me. Until I pull into port here again, may ye have fair winds and following seas, me hearties!